60 days clean....from meth and alcohol

I am in a really good place right now. I feel like I have a support system that genuinely cares abo9ut my well-being. And I feel so thankful to have that one person who listens to me and I can share anything with them, and feel safe to because I know they truly believe in me...

I feel overwhelmed. I have this sinking feeling in my chest like something bad might happen. Not to me but idk. I felt overwhelming love earlier today. My two Temples called me on the phone to express to me their concern for my well being and the direction im taking myself in life. My heart feels healed. These two have gotten together to make sure I do well. I cant believe how loving the Universe is, that it would bring this love to me from the two people that have always been so kind and loving. So this happened on the day I lost a soldier. My Macklay Boy is incarcerated, but he stands by me as well. The soldiers are beginning to come up to my doorstep. I need to be well and be strong. I need to love myself unconditionally and set my intention on positive change and move forward with their support.  Flak0 & Play3r you 2 are my niggerz

I am happy.Excited, a little scared, but ultimately humbled by what the world has laid down before my feet.

la la by the delfonics♥

I'm listening to oldies this late at night, drifting on a memory, getting caught up in the rapture, "Gonna take a mircacle" and the Delfonics "la la"... makes me shed a tear.

NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE

-.-

Play3r got me sick -.-

I've been about 90% high raw with daily supershots.
I love Real Raw Live.

Play3r got me sick -.-
What the heck.

A woman's heart is

a deep ocean of secrets.

BRY4N C FORSTER

so me and play4r have been hanging out almost every day.  he is so sweet to me.  i went with him to bring B00bs some soup. His mommy made some bomb adobo and soup and we chilled there for a sec and he had his arm around me and was calling me baby- so he was obviously trying to give b00bs the impression that we are together. then he drove me to his cousins house and introduced me to his family. then we went to the silverlake reservoir and he rolled a blunt and we just blazed watching the lake. it was purdy chill. but anyways made it a perfect nite with Play3r

THEIR COMING

I cut and colored my hair yesterday. Starting fresh. Then Play3r called me up and we went to the Observatory. He took me hiking on the trail all the way up the mountain and we watched the city below. The view was amazing. The lights are just so beautiful. We just sat there and talked. He had a really good pair of binoculars and we just watched the night sky.

I was so happy. I mean, the day had a combinations of all the things I love most- nature, night time, hiking, stars, and a beautiful moon in the sky. We even talked about aliens lol. Needless to say, it was a good day. After that we had dinner at Boiling Shrimp and we went to his house after to lay and cuddle and watch t.v.

:]

I cried on take off when the plane went up into the sky and I watched Saigon disappear under the clouds. Then upon seeing the city lights of Los Angeles as we landed, I cried again. Aint no city like mine.

I feel like my souls been catapulted from another planet
Cause who knows?


man i fuken love the man who spoke these words. he was so real. his level of awareness was on another level even then. he advised me to gather my mind, and well, it's a matter of time.

LUNAR NEW YEAR

I GOT 777 REVELATIONS FOR YOU.

LOYALTY ABOVE ALL LAWS.