Love

Soo I feel like I am falling in love again.  It feels wonderful and very very familiar.  I'm really optimistic and hopeful.  Also i'm going to be seeing him this weekend.

Anberlin - Blame Me! Blame Me!

And we could ride all night
To the pace of the blinking light
Wishing traffic was faster (traffic was faster)
Keeping safe distance, but courting disaster

We could dance all night
To the sounds of a starting fight
Hoping change would come around (change would come around)
Amazing division, how sweet the sound

Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!
For mistakes you've made but you can't own
Hate me, hate me, hate me
For every honest word that you've postponed
Leave me out of this
Your life's a sinking ship, so
Blame me, blame me, blame me
For mistakes you've made but you can't own

And we could stare all day
At problems that won't go away
Silence is pounding (silence is pounding)
You're wearing me down, these corners they're rounding

Then we could scream all night
With no resolve still left in sight
Stop saying you're sorry
All of these words feel so very empty

Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!
For mistakes you've made but you can't own
Hate me, hate me, hate me
For every honest word that you've postponed
Leave me out of this
Your life's a sinking ship, so
Blame me, blame me, blame me
For mistakes you've made but you can't own

Torturing ourselves, we must be into the abuse
If you're the rope that ties us together
Please make me a noose
Ask me to leave
Then beg me just to stay
Used to run to my arms, but now I walk away
Come and go as you please
I'm like a part-time lover with well-worn knees
Well, come on

Blame me! Blame me! Blame me!
For mistakes you've made but you can't own
Hate me, hate me, hate me
For every honest word that you've postponed
Leave me out of this
Your life's a sinking ship, so
Blame me, blame me, blame me
For mistakes you've made but you can't own

This is about a new person.

Yes simply because words play a role in the feeling of love when it invades us and the letters contain words

I can't believe you entered my dreams.

In  my dream he was in my class.  He showed up and entered the classroom.  I knew him immediately and was shy.  I couldn't believe he was in my dream though, : L

Break-up blog

I'm going to keep this short and sweet because it' 5:20 a.m. and i'm heartbroken.  I'm sitting here in my bed in M.P. thinking about how in a few hours ima be packing  all my stuff and going home to my parents.  Although this is my choice i feel so sad ending it with him.  I had to many hopes, plans, and dreams for us.  We fulfilled so much in the past 3 years.  I  know I am strong, but I feel so upset that our relationship didn't end up the way we'd hoped.  The next few days I really need to focus on me and improve myself for the best.  I've been living for someone else for all these years.  It's time to take care of me.  

Helwa Ya Baladi ... Elissa | حلوة يا بلدي ... إليسا

Good morning

I just woke up and put some  multipurpose cream  on my face.  Lately i've been really into beauty products and brands like Shea Moisture for it's african black soap, and Tonymoly for it's camellia oil and citrus blends, and Alaffia for it's baobab & coconut oil.  

The current butter on my face is by Alaffia.  It is supposed to be like a multipurpose cream.  I buy most creams and to be honest my current obssession is with buying  and trying new creams.  I really loved the Tatcha Water Cream but honestly it's grossly overpriced and I can't justify that no matter how pretty the  bottle is.  I've come to discover a new brand called TonyMoly and they have amazing products.  I am eyeing their Black Tea skincare products because I received a free sample when I visited the new store in Alhambra.   They were really nice and I'm always planning on going back.  They are better priced as a korean product than Tatcha water cream which is $68 for 50 ml compared to TonyMoly's The Black Tea London Classic Cream at $47 for 60 ml.  With the Black Tea London classic cream- you get an amazing product and for a better price.  

Anyways i'm rambling but i just wanted to check in with you journal and tell you that you're the best and that I love you.  :)