This is the second time he's upset me this bad.
I realize just why it gets to me,

cuz for once i was ready for a relationship-
i was up for it-
i knew i have what it takes to step up to the plate
and BE somones girlfriend-
I actually wanted a boyfriend.

But not like this. I cant hate him or be mad at him.
God is just gently nudging me somewhere else.
I understand. I just need to quiet my thoughts,
find peace in my heart, be grateful for this learning experience
and the chance i had to learn to love

and go to sleep. nite.