I can barely remember the many dreams I had last night--except for the one where i was standing inside my house(It was only my house in the dream but it was an unfamiliar location) looking outside past the door and seeing some stranger try to get in. He looked like some deranged crackhead trying to violate and enter my home. I have these dreams all the time. Usually in my dreams i am panicking rushing to close and lock the door tight before they get in. Sometimes i am holding a gun or a knife. It's always a close one but they never get past me. Ha.

I think the message going through in this dream is that i am afraid to let strangers in begin I cannot control the chaos that will ensue should they cross the line and take advantage of my kindness. My dream is also telling me to take action and be careful of who I keep around me. They have the potential to make or break me if I would only listen to my own feelings about who and what they are. The "stranger" i see symbolizes that i should keep my guard up. It's always crackhead or a man i dont know. It gives me the feeling i should not let any men into my life at this time of growth and change. I would only be sidetracked. Or i would risk relapsing back to drugs.

Anyways, I didnt even fall asleep until 5 a.m. today, which is incredulous considering i walked a 10k marathon yesterday. Weird. It must be the weather changes.