I'm kind of experiencing one of my moods again. It caught me off guard. While I was on the phone with Marv1n--- i felt all these conflicting emotions suddenly rush up on me, and then i just felt suspended in my own frustrations. I know I am releasing emotions that don't serve me, and all the deep issues are beginning to come to the top. I've been ignoring the pain by stuffing it down with drugs and alcohol all these years, and now its all coming up and i need to face it. I ask God to help me through these weak moments, and strengthen my faith that I will come out of this stronger. I know I will as long as I keep pressing forward with patience and self love. I need to be kind with myself and walk myself through this with the knowing that this is a process that requires me to be truthful and loving with myself....