I know that our relationship has had some major rough patches. I did my dirt. You did yours. We repeatedly hurt each other over and over again that first year together. I know that i've done things in the past that make me undeserving of even being with you now- things that, if i could take back, i would, because seeing how much it hurt you killed me inside. I wish i could take back all the times i hurt you, but i am grateful sometimes that it happened- because it showed me what a forgiving, kind, compassionate, and loving partner you are- something that is required to make love last a lifetime... it gave me the courage to continue loving you despite the backlash of what my actions caused in you. It gave me the confidence to keep pushing for our relationship, to keep hoping, to keep trying, whatever it takes to make it last.
The thought of letting you go for the benefit of the both of us has crossed my mind so many times. And it still does. To give you complete freedom: so you can really spread your wings and go in whatever direction life takes you- uninhibited by the duties that fidelity imposes on a man in reverance to keeping his wife happy and fulfilled...is something that i wish i could give you, if only it didn't mean that we'd have to part ways and say goodbye to each other. I feel like losing you would be like murdering the other half of me.
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