Today I am really happy because my day started off right. The nice older lady that works at Noodle Cafe gave me a free cafe sua da on my way out. :) She also complimented me by calling me "nguoi dep" (Pretty Person). It pleases me so much to hear compliments as a girl/woman, especially from another girl/woman. I realize we can influence others so much with a positive demeanor but most importantly kind words to tranform someones day. In other words, her compliments gave me life lol. I don't know what it is but as a woman sometimes you doubt yourself. Affirmation feels good.
It's been awhile so I want to update you on as much as I can. I've been having a strong urge to book an appointment with this new hairstylist by my house (MP), but honestly i've been really loving my full long hair. I realize that even trimming it for 2-3 inches would lose my favorite asset as of lately. I think it almost touches my butt when i sit to use to toilet, DEFINITELY a sign off too long hair LOL.
Recently, I was at my parent's house to bring my dad home from the airport and I weighed myself at 104 on the digital scale. That makes me really happy because at my heaviest I was 130 pounds, but at my lowest I was about 98 pounds (naturally by going vegan). My goal weight is 110-115. I would be happy as long as i'm fit and there's some muscle there. All the fat and cholestoral dissapated and I lost so much weight going meatless!
Anyway i'm not very happy in my relationship right now. Like, i'm still that sensitive person that cries when she thinks about being left or deserted or abandoned. Sometimes I realize that I cry every day and I know it's just something that's a part of me. The crying comes from sadness and feelings of loss and not wanting to experience loss. I guess it's just normal after all that's happened to me in my life.
I'm exited because we are going to go to the Antelope Poppy Reserve soon. Me and Marv1n also recently went on a trip to Joshua Tree National Park! It was really beautiful being in the desert. A fresh escape into the heat and history of California.
I'm really thinking into starting to update more, and to also include pictures. That would be rad- even if nobody is reading this. I deleted my instagram 2 months ago and it feels awesome tbh. Not much going on there but my paranoia of who is looking at my pictures lol. It shouldn't be that way. Anyways, it feels good to re acquaint with you again journal- you know my feelings and I enjoy reflecting, looking back, and reading you. I missed you so much. Love, Tammyy.
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