I lost a pet and my best friend in the same month.  Let's hope they somehow come back. :/

Somehow just come back home.

Madagascar 3 was actually pretty funny.  I used my groupon for 2 movie tickets at the chinese theatre and went with Linds.:) 
Tomorrow, I start eating healthy and exercising. :)

Since he's gone i've kind of gone downhill.  I never thought i would be this upset. 


Starting fresh.  I have to.

I really miss him- and would do anything to be near him- to hold him-to have everything be ok.  I miss my babe;*(

I always miss him so much when he goes in.  Even if its just for a few days.  The worst part for me is knowing that he is probably feeling really sick and unable to sleep comfortably on a real bed.

There's no denying that I love him. Everybody knows it. Our friends, him, me. But it's not the kind of love that is demanding or giving stipulations to. It's unconditional. I don't like to impose my feelings onto anybody and when i love someone- i just do and act accordingly. I would be lying if i said that sometimes i don't wonder what we would be like if we were actually "together"... I mean- there are so many things that i love about him but above all i love that he is always there for me. I've never had anyone completely welcome me into their home, their circle, their family, their life, without any reservations. Even when he was tied up he still looked out for me and let me stay at his pad even though he knew he could lose everything because of it. Apparently i have a soft spot for people who do things for me when I don't ask them to.

I woke up last night to the sound of the floor creaking from what seemed like cat footsteps. Assuming it was Ella, Daisy, or Daphne, I picked up my cell phone and shined the light in the direction of the noise. It sounded from the direction of the t.v. Immediately my heart started racing when I CLEARLY saw Reba (my recently deceased cat) sitting about`face staring at me. She had her back straight and she stared intently into my eyes. A very serious/grave stare, illuminated by the light of the very dim cell phone screen. I knew immediately what i saw. I almost jumped from the surprise. My heart broke seeing how she looked very emaciated from what she had been in life. I was so shocked...but then the light timed out and the room went dark. Hurriedly i slicked the light back on, getting up out of bed and straining to get closer... this time the image of her faded away and it became my ugg boot. I can grasp how i could have made that mistake since a sand colored ugg boot would be silimar in size and shape to an orange tabby. Still, I SAW Reba BEFORE she was an ugg boot. It was just maddeningly scary and sad at the same time. I miss her so much. Yet seeing her last night did not give me any comfort. I always imagined i'd wake up to a ghost cat silently treading on my stomach while i am half asleep or something. I still miss her. I miss her cuddling and her sweetness- the comfort and adoration in her posture whenever she was snuggled with me. She loved me.