Happy Halloween! :]

Hello Journal- long time no blog.:]

Today was the most satisfying Halloween yet; and all I did was stay home to pass out candy.  What they say is true: it feels so much better to give than to receive, and it was super invigorating to experience one of my favorite Holidays on the other end of the tradition.  My Halloween actually started out great hanging out with S1g- we seriously talked about the paranormal for hours and its always so refreshing to have conversations with someone who knows that world as well as I do.  Then I had indian food then watched Argo.  It was a tense and gripping drama- you couldn't help but hope and pray for the 6 hostages to make it- which they did.  :]  I also learned historical events that took place between the U.S., Canada, and Iran that i didn't know before.  Ben Affleck is really showing his true potential as not only a sexy actor, but also an amazing director.  Anyways- i ran out of candy and had to go out and buy more- i probably spent $35 on candy this year- so note to self- buy $50 worth next year!  The trick or treaters started coming at 6:30 and ended at 8:30.  I definitely intend to go all out next year and pass out bags of treats and candy.  It was just cool to interact with my neighbors and see everyone's cool costumes. 

Anyways, it's been awhile so i'm going to update my past few months into one paragraph.  I adopted Arnold- my second kitten- from the animal shelter and he turned out to be really sick with an upper respiratory infection.  I thought he wouldnt make it- he had trouble breathing on his own and he was so tiny and skinny.  But i didn't give up and i nursed him back to health; and now he's a healthy sized kitty!  He LOVES his brother Toru (since day 1, actually) and the two alternate between cuddling and fighting all day.  It's actually pretty entertaining to watch them- i CANNOT take enough pictures of it.  Anyways i'm pretty much settled into my guesthouse now- it will be 3 weeks this Saturday.  I'm pretty healthy and have been taking e3 live everyday for the past 2 months, maybe 3.  I feel really positive about my future.  Anyways i intend to write again soon.  Love ya blog/audience.readers!  Smoochies:-) 

ARNOLD

Sooo I adopted a 10 week old kitten from the shelter.  I named him Arnold.  He's a cream and white puff of fur and today Daisy scratched him in the eye and it bled.  I have yet to get my revenge.  Anyways, he is starting to trust me more and he doesn't hide behind the closet like the first two days, now that was just sad. Arold just loooves Toru but Toru is always slapping him in the face with his furry teen kitty paw LOL.  Well maybe this post would be more fit for my other blog. 

So i've been drinking a bottle of e3 live every 5 days for the past month or so.  I think i've gone through like 6 bottles.  Im starting to feel really good again- with juicing, smoothies, and colonics.  I have been releasing old fears in my dreams.  Life is good with a great job and two wonderful kitties.  I just really miss Noah though and im coming to terms with the way events turned out... i trust it is all for the best.  For the past 5 years i've known him- 3 of which he become my best friend... and we've been inseperable... and the past 3 months have been my longest time away from him.. pretty much.  County jail visits dont count.  I just really miss having that one homie you can call to go out to eat with, go catch a movie with, go run errands with, and when youre in need of a ride home from the airport- he can take you & various other helpful things he does for me.  The one pawsitive thing that came out of his incarceration was me adopting Toru and Arnold.  But i wish he could meet them too. =(

Last night i had a dream about Hippo (from Philly)... it was so weird?  We were like cuddling on thebed.  That awkward moment when you wake up from a weird love dream.  :(

It was actually a really sweet & endearing moment.  Even though in real life that would never happen lol.  But i was super shocked in the best way to dream about someone i used to be so close with but don't talk to anymore.

I went to the optometrist at Costco on Tuesday,
ordered my new prescription colored contacts Wednesday..
am really excited to pick them up this weekend.

I have been drinking E3Live at faster rates than ever before.
I figured if I go through one 16oz bottle every 5 days
i can leave it in the fridge and finish it before it loses its healing properties.:)

Also I watched my last episode of Paranormal State on Netflix last night.
It was weird because the season ended with the main character &
investigation team replaced. Eh, i'm the type of person that takes some getting used to
new people. :/

I watched a movie called Cider House Rules recently..
I wish they made movies more like it.
I've always liked Tobey McGuire- there's something about him thats
so genuine.

Anyways- work has been good and i always get lucky.
But thats good cause then I can afford the good stuff like E3Live.
 So yeah it' 5:19 i woke up over an hour ago to feed Toru but i haven't been able to
go back to sleep.  

"Death is not just an ending. With it, new life begins, although you do not see the new life and the new stages in the evolution of the soul of your loved one (you only see the ending which is what causes grief). Know that your loved one lives on, and experiences new life and goes on to the next stage in their soul’s evolution, even if you cannot see it. You can honour and witness this cycle symbolically through planting something beautiful and seeing it grow." 

I love you Reba.  With all my heart and i let you go to experience the next beginning in your soul's journey.

I had a haunted dream last night; which is a dream where i'm visited by a ghost.  This dream was longer but i only remember the last part of it now.  I was in a strange house hiding out in a room with all the cats (Daphne, Daisy, Ella, Toru),   It was night time and there was an over-powering vibration of fear lurking in every part of the house, but the room we were hiding in we felt safer than any other room.  The lights were turned on in every room- but they casted an eerie yellow glow.  I opened the door to peek outside and Toru slipped out and ventured beyond the room. I hated the fact that i had to come after him, but even in my dreams- I love my kitty enough to go and collect him from whatever dangers lay beyond the room within the house.  I claircognizantly knew that the house was haunted by the spirit of a ghost.  Something/someone sent a thought to my head:  "This house is haunted by L3fty's ghost."  I felt a sadness inside cus of course- in my dream i believed my friend was dead.  I silently tiptoed through the scary house and it looked like a house in L.A. would look on the inside- old, and kinda falling apart.  I felt an all pervading sense of him- his spirit- all throughout the house, watching me.  I felt watched the whole time i was in the house.  And as chilling as it was being alone in that house - but i felt a sense of confidence within, cus i picked up on the spirit's love and affection for me (as if it really were N0ahs spirit.)  The emotions i felt besides fear, uneasiness, sadness, were- pain, heaviness, regret. And thats all i can remember.

I was a bit upset when i woke up cus my first thought, How the fuck would i dream about his ghost if he's not dead?  And now i just want him to call me so i know he's okay.  :/ I more strongly belive that someone's spirit was reaching out to me in my dreams last night in connection to him- but who, i dont know.  My best guess would be his dad.  But i'm curious to know as to what the purpose for making ocntact with me would be.  But i know his father's spirit is probably the most non-relenting spirit when it comes to trying to get my attention.  I feel like he just doesn't want me to give up on his son. :/

I'm go glad I got rid of these bad friends.  Now that the bad influences are gone- I can focus on me and start saving for something big.  This week- i've been drinking bout a shot of E3Live a day and going through a bottle a week for the past 2.  I feel so much better and i sleep deeply.  When i wake up though, itll be hard to fall asleep but for the most part i'm regaining my health.  I drink at least 1 large juice/green smoothie a day- and have fallen in LOVE with Robek's seasonal:  Tropi-Kale smoothie.  :)  It's basically a yummy blend of papaya juice, frozen pineapple, kale, and non-fat yogurt.  I've been working consistently since i've returned to Hawaii and i'm actually doing VERY well and usually the highest earner at the end of the day.  I'm not surprised though, people just continually compliment me on how calm, friendly, happy, and well put together I am.  Being a good person comes naturally to me and I gotta thank my mom and dad for that.:)

I drove my grandparents to my aunt's random party today.  On the ride home I observed that these two 80 year olds  are two amazingly positive people.  Everything that comes out of their mouths are words of gratitude, praise, blessings, laughter, humor, or recollecting fond memories.    My grandpa goes "Wow. look at those cars how lucky they are to be parked in the shade".  It amazes me how good -natured and anti-bad-attitude they are.  No wonder i'm the way that I am.   I think we underestimate the influences our grandparents have on us.  Not just from actual interactions with them our whole lives but also being raised by the product of their hard-work- our parents.  I love mine and I hope they stay with me forever.