I've been sleeping over at Thy's, and i've been having the weirdest cosmic dreams. In which im in different realities and other earth's even. I dream a lot about about outer space and in these dreams I am the one who is being the receiver of disclosure from Primary Facilitators of other worlds. Yes. I really question my place in earth's history. I have this beautiful gift of astrological awareness and I am struggling to be at peace with the fact that no one else in my world really cares about what's going on in the cosmos. Why do I know this stuff if it doesnt serve anyone any purpose? Why do the outer space aliens interest only me? It certainly does not help that my brain is on drugs. But even so I have a keen awareness of whats real and whats not even when i use. Sometimes when I smoke I feel like it opens up my mind and the doors of perception are open as well. I perceive everything magnified- my feelings, other peoples feelings, especially the moods and emotions of others. It's really enlightening but at the same time its not good for me. It can be good for me because it makes me feel as close to people as when i normally dont allow myself to be because i have my guard up. So i allow a two way flow of energy and im more apt to tell someone the contents of my mind. It can be damaging to me because my feelings are amplified on meth and it makes me feel so vulnerable being sensitive to whats going on around me.

Right now im sleeping over Jac1nda's and being in this room upstairs makes me reminisce on last summer when i was on drugs. I spent many nights laying next to her while she slept, as my mind raced and i lie stuck staring at the darkness around me wishing i would sleep and unable to attach myself from the events and people i encountered last. Tonight is so different escept this time im a little more aware of my nature as a human being. I can allow myself to get clear again. Anyways this Halloween was good. I passed out candy with Thy. We took so many pictures.