I had a flurry of painful dreams last night.

In one of them me and Noah hated each other and ignored each other and he was living that lifestyle while i was in Chicago working as a coffee shop girl.  There was a sense of anger and bitterness to this fight that was unprecedented in our other fights,  In all previous arguments i would disappear on him and he would know im mad but constantly try to call and patch things up by telling me he loves me , etc.  Sometimes after a week of giving me my space, the majority of it oblivious the the fact im even upset by anything at all.But in the dream he was equally set on never seeing me again.  Then one day i was at his moms house visiting his mom and she was quite distraught about him having terrible friends who are always over and i told her i never wanted to see him again.  At that moment he called her on the phone he was in the house with friends and i hid in the closet.  I didnt want to see him cus im stubborn like that and i didnt want it to look like i was there for him.  I heard and saw him walk through even though i did not peak out.. it was a psychic kind of thing.  In the room, i "saw" him pick up his phone and call someone... it was me that he called. And we spoke on the phone (while i was still hiding in the closet yet he didnt hear me except on the phone).  He was sorry he wanted to see me blah blah blah.  I dont remember much else except i was then back at the club and i was working with a whole bunch of white girls.  We were all in our bikinis and i was choosing my outfit for the day..i decided on a tiny red bikini,  The vibe between the girls and me- was close knit.  Which felt good.  I ordered a huge loaf of bread that was filled with this chocolate cream...it was soooo good. Then my older coworker saw her idol Pamela Anderson and we all were happy for her.  She thanked me and said it was because of me.  Somehow me eating that chocolate fllled loaf of bread made it happen.  I cant remember too clearly.

Then was the wonderfully tender scene i dreamt last.  I was in a strange house but still living with Lynette.  I was sitting in a dim lit room on a pile of blankets when Reba appeared.  Astonished and filled with pure joy i had the courage to reach out and touch her.. and she was in the physical!  I knew even in my dream that she had deceased which was so amazing because i realized her ghost was solid, and she made it that way and appeared to me as well as allowed me to hold her.  I took her in my arms and wrapped my body around her and held her close to my heart.  She was equally joyous.  She had weight too, just like in life.  By all means she came back fully in her cat form.  I called out to Lynette that Reba had appeared to me and she was in my arms and seconds later Lynette appeared.  But by then Reba had gone "unvisible", yet i still felt her presence strongly in my room, even in my arms.  Lynette believed me though.  Then i went into my room and caught Reba crawling into a closet and hiding in the clothes staring at me mischiviously- but with love.  Then she crawled into a hole and wnet back to the other side.

Next scene i was wandering a party it looked more like ozzfest-  i was with this kid who was in a band.  We saw some dead people on the way.  It was fun but the mood was quite sombre and dark.


I miss Reba. So much,