An internal struggle

I know it's not good to talk about and think about the things that you're not happy about, but for me, this has been weighing me down for some time and since I don't have close girl friends I can talk to at the point in my life... i'm going to voice my concerns here.  Even if this goes against law of attraction, what i am studying.

Sometimes, when it comes to my relationship- I feel like I am on a sinking ship. 
It's a point where I reflect on our challenges, and it saddens me to notice that the things we fight about the most, are the same arguments over and over.  He makes promises, breaks them, lies, breaks my heart, and out of pure love and forgiveness I give him more chances but i am starting to see that he does not want to change... and that is a problem that i, no matter how hard i try to think positive, to be grateful for whats good, cannot ignore.  Some things... I am just not okay with.

Not to say that he is not a good man, BUT in the context of your relationship, if you know that your partner becomes really upset on certain "sensitive topics and issues" for example. smoking marijuana, and they expressedly ask you to stop and you don't...it's easy to conclude that your partner does not care about your feelings enough. It's selfishness.  BUT from his point of view, my problem should be big enough to leave.  And i'm honestly considering.

The thought of leaving him has been lingering at the back of my mind for months now.
I love him and i absolutely love who he is and spending time with him, but if he continues to head in a direction that makes me super upset everytime and causes fights that are never resolved,
I may just have to love myself enough to say, I have had enough.

You do not value me.
You do not honor me.
You do not respect me.
Because if you did,
you would honor my requests.

And i dont make many.

I am too embarassed by this, but there are certain things i have given up on asking him. It's things that he used to do to impress me and make me feel special, but now, he doesn't do them anymore.
I would ask him:

Why don't you ever text me while you're at work to tell me you miss me and that you love me?
You used to do it everyday, many times a day, when you were in prison.
Nowadays, i wish to hear it from you first.  But i usually just go ahead and be the one to do it,
because i know it would make you happy to receive that text message.
I do it almost everyday..i wonder if it even means anything to you.
Why don't you ever surprise me with flowers?
I always hint at it, have even asked you, and when we go to markets that sell flowers,
I always stop to smell them, talk about how beautiful they are, and say,
"I LOVE the smell of flowers.  These are beautiful."
I also talk about how even flowers hand picked would make a lovely sentiment..
But you never notice.
I used to write you love notes and surprise letters.
But you never responded to them,
so i have become discouraged and stopped.
Every time we stop by a toy store, you say, "I want to get a toy for Kylie"
and as cute and as much as that warms my heart,
I wonder why you never think that for me.
I wonder if when you're out with your friends,
you think, "Id like to get something for Tammy".  
 In the past month or two, i have hinted at liking for you to plan a date/day for us.
Maybe take me to a nice restaurant.
You have yet to do so, and i have given up hope to see it happen.
I have tried to cook for you a few times,
I can count the number of times on my hand.
I'm not a cook but i made the effort.
None of those times you told me it was good.
It just discouraged me from trying.
And the last time i cooked for you, I got everything ready and prepared to enjoy a nice meal with you,
and you decided to stay at work an extra hour voluntarily.  Even though you knew i worked hard to prepare you a meal and was waiting a home, hungry.

I know these things don't make you a bad person at all
but i just dont feel special at all smetimes to you.