What can i say?  In one day my whole life turned upside down.  It hurts so much.  Because even after all he did to hurt me, i still love him.  I think about that humble, caring, loving prisoner that i fell in love with.  The voice that carried me to sleep everynight and i didnt feel so alone.

 I don't know what happened, but i know for whatever reason, he no longer believes in that beautiful life we dreamed up together.  I just need to accept tht my life has changed, and it will never be the same.  I think about the day i woke up from the hospital and i saw him standing there.  In his work clothes, stained with paint.  My heart was so full because i saw he love in his eyes for me, and i was so touched that he came.