I am happily getting back into the swing of things. I'm excercising again- and making big salads in the morning. I'm cleansing my body- and i can feel the dead weight lifting off of me. I've been doing emotional work too, working through my issues, and choosing love instead of indifference. I walk around lighter, i laugh more, i relax more, i appreciate my own company- nd my own humor more. I m so much more honest with myself- and the past two weeks i've spent really honoring my decision to be clean and to be the best person I can be. I feel renewed, and relieved to have once again shifted away from the chaos and to tune into a higher consciousness- where the world around me is so much less hostile and so much more supporting. I am pregnant, and I am happy. My baby is happy. I can do this, i have faith... Everything will be alright. We are n God's hands.

Life...
is about living, and learning. Learning how to love, and learning how to give.
But I am learning that sometimes- you need to learn to stop giving when you aren't being helped back at all- or if you're becoming disempowered by the way you feel. I'm learning to let go. To be strong. To think clearly, and to make the best decisions for myself- no matter how uncomfortable i may be or how much it actually hurts me to choose.

I just feel so alone in this pregnancy.  I wish he cared.  He helped make it. 

My 4th of July was wonderful. I truly celebrated my Independence. Today i took J acinda with me to get our ear candled. We love D eenie. She's so caring and so knowledgable. Anyways-

I'm lovin work. I'm lovin my apartment. I'm lovin me. & I'm lovin life. Plain & Simple.
Happy 1 month anniversary mickey mouse<3

Today is the first of the month- which means I proudly paid my rent. :) I am happy with my progress. I can see how hard i've been trying. I actually put in the effort, and now i'm just coaching myself on how to put in just a little more. I've decided to stop partying and to just focus on saving money. Then I can go shopping more. :)

Tomorrow I begin a 3 day juice fast. I'm so happy. I was at R eal R aw L ive earlier for the first time and I met TWOOOOOO hollywood actors. Bobby Lee from MAD Tv, and Micheal Angarano from Disney's Sky High, and he was actually REAAALLLY cute. But not as cute as my mickey mouse<33