Last night i had a dream about Hippo (from Philly)... it was so weird?  We were like cuddling on thebed.  That awkward moment when you wake up from a weird love dream.  :(

It was actually a really sweet & endearing moment.  Even though in real life that would never happen lol.  But i was super shocked in the best way to dream about someone i used to be so close with but don't talk to anymore.

I went to the optometrist at Costco on Tuesday,
ordered my new prescription colored contacts Wednesday..
am really excited to pick them up this weekend.

I have been drinking E3Live at faster rates than ever before.
I figured if I go through one 16oz bottle every 5 days
i can leave it in the fridge and finish it before it loses its healing properties.:)

Also I watched my last episode of Paranormal State on Netflix last night.
It was weird because the season ended with the main character &
investigation team replaced. Eh, i'm the type of person that takes some getting used to
new people. :/

I watched a movie called Cider House Rules recently..
I wish they made movies more like it.
I've always liked Tobey McGuire- there's something about him thats
so genuine.

Anyways- work has been good and i always get lucky.
But thats good cause then I can afford the good stuff like E3Live.
 So yeah it' 5:19 i woke up over an hour ago to feed Toru but i haven't been able to
go back to sleep.  

"Death is not just an ending. With it, new life begins, although you do not see the new life and the new stages in the evolution of the soul of your loved one (you only see the ending which is what causes grief). Know that your loved one lives on, and experiences new life and goes on to the next stage in their soul’s evolution, even if you cannot see it. You can honour and witness this cycle symbolically through planting something beautiful and seeing it grow." 

I love you Reba.  With all my heart and i let you go to experience the next beginning in your soul's journey.

I had a haunted dream last night; which is a dream where i'm visited by a ghost.  This dream was longer but i only remember the last part of it now.  I was in a strange house hiding out in a room with all the cats (Daphne, Daisy, Ella, Toru),   It was night time and there was an over-powering vibration of fear lurking in every part of the house, but the room we were hiding in we felt safer than any other room.  The lights were turned on in every room- but they casted an eerie yellow glow.  I opened the door to peek outside and Toru slipped out and ventured beyond the room. I hated the fact that i had to come after him, but even in my dreams- I love my kitty enough to go and collect him from whatever dangers lay beyond the room within the house.  I claircognizantly knew that the house was haunted by the spirit of a ghost.  Something/someone sent a thought to my head:  "This house is haunted by L3fty's ghost."  I felt a sadness inside cus of course- in my dream i believed my friend was dead.  I silently tiptoed through the scary house and it looked like a house in L.A. would look on the inside- old, and kinda falling apart.  I felt an all pervading sense of him- his spirit- all throughout the house, watching me.  I felt watched the whole time i was in the house.  And as chilling as it was being alone in that house - but i felt a sense of confidence within, cus i picked up on the spirit's love and affection for me (as if it really were N0ahs spirit.)  The emotions i felt besides fear, uneasiness, sadness, were- pain, heaviness, regret. And thats all i can remember.

I was a bit upset when i woke up cus my first thought, How the fuck would i dream about his ghost if he's not dead?  And now i just want him to call me so i know he's okay.  :/ I more strongly belive that someone's spirit was reaching out to me in my dreams last night in connection to him- but who, i dont know.  My best guess would be his dad.  But i'm curious to know as to what the purpose for making ocntact with me would be.  But i know his father's spirit is probably the most non-relenting spirit when it comes to trying to get my attention.  I feel like he just doesn't want me to give up on his son. :/

I'm go glad I got rid of these bad friends.  Now that the bad influences are gone- I can focus on me and start saving for something big.  This week- i've been drinking bout a shot of E3Live a day and going through a bottle a week for the past 2.  I feel so much better and i sleep deeply.  When i wake up though, itll be hard to fall asleep but for the most part i'm regaining my health.  I drink at least 1 large juice/green smoothie a day- and have fallen in LOVE with Robek's seasonal:  Tropi-Kale smoothie.  :)  It's basically a yummy blend of papaya juice, frozen pineapple, kale, and non-fat yogurt.  I've been working consistently since i've returned to Hawaii and i'm actually doing VERY well and usually the highest earner at the end of the day.  I'm not surprised though, people just continually compliment me on how calm, friendly, happy, and well put together I am.  Being a good person comes naturally to me and I gotta thank my mom and dad for that.:)

I drove my grandparents to my aunt's random party today.  On the ride home I observed that these two 80 year olds  are two amazingly positive people.  Everything that comes out of their mouths are words of gratitude, praise, blessings, laughter, humor, or recollecting fond memories.    My grandpa goes "Wow. look at those cars how lucky they are to be parked in the shade".  It amazes me how good -natured and anti-bad-attitude they are.  No wonder i'm the way that I am.   I think we underestimate the influences our grandparents have on us.  Not just from actual interactions with them our whole lives but also being raised by the product of their hard-work- our parents.  I love mine and I hope they stay with me forever.