Hello journal

I just wanted to update a bit on my progress.  On June 18 of this year I got a membership to 24 hour fitness with my boyfriend.  My first time ever being a member of a gym or even being in a gym. It's a unique and special day in my life because i have pretty much been utilizing my gym membership to the fullest since then, averaging going to the gym 5-6 days a week.  So for the past 6 weeks, i have really stepped it up on my fitness journey and it's something I feel REALLY good about!  

I'm going to school, bam!
Working out at the gym, bam!
Eating healthy, bam!
Finding balance, bam!

Learning so much about myself throughout it all, and loving and appreciating myself so much more in the process. I am ding the work and I am so happy for myself.  I'm gosh darn proud.

Have i told you that my belly is flattening out?
Because it is, and my skin is starting to glow.  
I'm becoming leaner, stronger, more mentally fit.
My mental energy is abundant, and I am still going strong-
No alcohol, no drugs, no stimulants, just pure self love energy!  

I am happy and satisfied with how far i've moved into a clearer space.
I went to Santa Cruz with my family this weekend and i loved it.  
Note to self: Return to Santa Cruz to that beautiful lighthouse, and stay at the Comfort Inn! :)

Thank you for reading. :)

R.I.P. Jennifer Kim

The beautiful Korean girl on the left was my friend Jenn.  She was one of the victim's of the Northridge quadruple murder on Dec. 2, 2012.  Some guy shot her in the head execution style along with my friend Amanda in the picture.  I never knew the whole time we hung out that Jenn was 2 years older than me.  When i read her birthday on her gravestone my heart sunk because she was only 26, i'm not even 26 yet.  

The weird thing is we used to always run into each other at mutual friend's house and parties, and not say a word to each other.  Somebody had spread damaging rumors that hurt our friendship, but instead of being aggressive and confronting each other about it, we would just ignore each other when we saw each other- which was several times a week.  Or we'd move into another room and hangout to not be in the same room to avoid the other person.  Today, I am more mature and realize that even though we hated each other for awhile, it was mutual respect that caused us to stay civil even when we ran into each other.  I'm blessed with the memory of the very last time I saw you... We helped our mutual friend move and clean out his u-haul space and actually worked together on something.  It was nice finally feeling the pressure lift off and knowing we were okay in the same room.   It was nothing short of fate that your car overheated afterwards, so while the guys went to fix the problem- we actually had time alone together in the garage room.  Our first and last time ever being alone together.  Boy, it was nice.  And going to 7-11 with you and having you buy me that slurpee, that was really nice of you.