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Angel webinar, concluded.  :)

Grateful.

I feel so good about the progress i am making.  Somehow, all the prayers and hard work i've put into self-improvement are paying off and there seems to be a snowball effect, but magnified.  Magnified in a way that it has never been magnified.  I feel like i've crossed some major thresholds, overcome mental barriers that have not been overcome, being more and feeling more love and abundance and gratitude than ever before.

It must have been my ongoing success at sobriety, and recovery from my drug of choice... i'm almost passing the 2 year mark.  Maybe it is knowing I have not had a drop of alcohol in 4 months- even though I have been in tempting situations.  Knowing that I choose to love myself to say no and to choose what's best for me.  Maybe it's all the healthy green smoothies i'm making from the blentec.  Maybe it's finally living my life with my boyfriend- and seeing the fruition of a 3 year dream come to pass.  It must have been all those early morning walks, releasing my intentions to the world...or those nighttime walks alone- in powerful prayer to the elements, asking for cleansing, peace, and progress.  It must have been the dutiful observance of the moon and her cycles... Finally, my life is becoming so wonderful.  I am stepping out and joining up, signing up, and trying out new things that have a healing, edifying benefit for my mind... Acupuncture, angel readings, manifestation courses, diligent study- daily- practicing and memorizing by heart the laws of the Universe.  Thank you Divine Intelligence, for hearing my conversation to you.  I feel so good and safe knowing that you are listening, and lovingly guiding me to my destiny- and bringing me towards the people, places, oppurtunities, and experiences that are causing me to open up my heart, and to allow myself to receive love.

All these years, I didn't know how to listen to my inner voice.  But now, I am hearing my soul song, and returning to the healthy state of mind that I deserve.  The Universe is so good.  All good.  I am at peace with where i am, now.

near death experience

I just wanted to update you journal on my recent near death experience.  It happened 6 days ago on Thursday.  It shocked me because the day prior i was such a ball of positive energy and I had won the beauty give-away contest, so I was feeling so blessed, but now I continue to see why that experience was a HUGE blessing to me as well.  Now that i've had my car checked- I found out I had a few nails in my rear passenger tire, which caused me to lose tire pressure gradually over the next day, until Thursday- a truly hot day, caused my tire to completely and unexpectedly pop while driving.

I don't feel a need to re-live the experience, but I will admit it was fully traumatizing and turned my world upside down, shaking me all over inside.  I will never be the same, and I more fully appreciate my life.  Which is a gift in itself.  I can honestly say- not only is it a miracle that I am alive still today, but also that I didn't hurt anybody else around me that day.  I don't know why- but the Universe coordinated that event, somehow for the betterment of me.  I know I am always sending out my soulful intentions for the Universe for a happier life, more self-discipline, a more balanced life, to become stronger, for more spiritual growth, and I believe even though this experience was scary- it served a greater purpose.  I'm truly thankful for my angels that are always watching over me... for sure, I felt protected that day, in the highest form possible, they shielded me 100% from harm.  I guess I am TRULY loved.  I am loved THAT much, and it humbles me. 

Overall I know in my heart i'm drawing the events and experiences that I need to step forward in life.  The past month has been such a beautiful blessing.  It took a lot of mental planning and effort on my part, but I have been doing the work on myself.  I've been seeking advice from a mentor, pursuing my education, following my passion for nutrition, signing up for angel courses, delving deeper into the Law of Attraction.  I started reading a book called Because You Can, by Ulrike last Wednesday and it's been such a great addition to my self-improvement practice.  Her writing is so simple, straightforward, and speaks me my mind in such an organized way- I am so happy really.  My life feels 200% more hopeful and positive ever since I've been putting time aside for my own edification, daily.  I'm so grateful for the support of the Universe and everyone around me.  I am finally becoming the powerful person I always knew deep down I was.  Until next time journal. :)

I am floating in a sea of gratitude right now. :-)

Wow, life is so amazing.  I've had such an energizing, progressive, productive, beautiful month full of discovery.  It all started with an angel reading in which I was guided to go and begin nutrition school.  Everything felt right, and the stars were aligned, whatever it was- Jolynne's beautiful words of encouragement set me sailing!  After much research I narrowed down to 2 schools, either the University of Natural Health or Institute of Integrative Nutrition.  My intuition was guiding me towards IIN, but I still wanted to MAKE SURE.  One day I was considering which school and I saw a billboard with the numbers 444 in big words across it.  It was such a synchronistic moment because I had been seeing those numbers eveywhere alot at that time- 444. (I normally see 11:11, 222,333,555 alot, etc.)  When I got home that day, I decided to call IIN for more information, and guess what their phone nunber ended with?  444!!!  I knew I had found the perfect school.  Their program is absolutely amazing, i just needed confirmation to choose between two amazing schools.

I overcame my fear of not having enough money to pay for it, of not being able to find clients upon graduation, of not being a good enough health coach- I just cast it aside and decided to give myself a chance.  I wanted it badly, and even my angels gave me the confirmation to!  So now, I am a student of IIN.  School started Monday, and everyday I wake up with absolute satisfaction that I am taking such a big step towards a brighter future for myself.  I know in my heart so much good will come out of this, for myself and for others.  I've been taking such good care of myself, keeping my body fit, drinking more water, studying hard... I feel really good about my progress.  On top of that- acupuncture is doing something for me that is absolutely amazing.  It's bringing so much peace and focus into my life.  I'm sleeping so much better, and my cravings are beginning to subside.  I'm struggling much less on a low fat, low salt high raw food diet.

Anyways I just wanted to give a little update on all the blessings that have come my way.  I saw a new acupuncture physician today, and he is really good!  He, Dr. Lee actually explained to me just from checking my pulse and looking at my tongue what is going on in my body, confirming to me something that I already knew:  That my liver is weakened and it is actually drawing energy from the surrounding organs in my body to perform it's functions, thereby over exhausting those organs, which is the reason for my fatigue.  I always knew it was my liver making me tired, but he worded it in such an easy to understand way.  I am going to continue doing whatever I can to strengthen my liver and eating a healing diet as best I can.

Before acupuncture I found the coolest thrift store in Monrovia and I bought a book called "Because You Can!"  by Ulrike for 99 cents!  So far i've read one chapter and it's amazing.  It's about what I love: how our thoughts our powerful and all self-improvement starts with rigorous mental house cleaning!  I wouldn't doubt that Archangel Uriel for leading me to it.  Thanks! ;)  I'm so grateful for my angels standing by my side.

Then when I got home I got my package with all my school materials and I was so happy!  I sent as much love energy to the UPS guy as I could, and I know he felt it!  :)

Then... the icing on the cake... I won a contest!  I couldn't believe it!  I have literally won 3 different things in my life:

1.  Once I was at an arcade and found a gold token on the floor.  It was a game token and I inserted the token into the closest arcade game...Wheel of Fortune...with the pull of a lever it landed on 500!  Which meant I won 500 tickets!  The most that could be won from that game!  I felt like the luckiest girl in the world watching all 500 tickets being printed out right before me.  It is the first time I can remember feeling so lucky.  It made me think, sometimes, good things can happen to me.  I think I redeemed those tickets for some candy and a stuffed animal, I was like 13 years old.  :P

2.  Then sometime last year I had one of those Victoria's Secret rewards card!  I came up to the register to see how much I had on it, and it was $100!  It was seriously so awesome because I was expecting just ten dollars.  Needless to say, I came home with some PINK clothing that day. :)

3.  And TODAY, I won a beauty grab bag from the amazing JoLynne Valerie!  I'm seriously still buzzing from joy and I found out over an hour ago.  I did my happy dance and jumped up and down on my bed.  I told my boyfriend and he was so happy for me.  I'm so incredibly grateful.  To Jolynne, to the angels, to my spirit guides, to the Universe.  I actually entered last minute because something inside me just said, just do it!  Really, i enter contests occasionally with relaxed hopes of winning, but deep down, I know i would be happy even if I didn't win because that would mean something else had a chance to win.  But I feel like today, the voice inside said, "Why not?  You deserve it too.  It could happy to you."  So i entered last minute and i found out i did win!

  I don't think i can adequately describes how much this means to me.  Not just the idea of winning a contest, but feeling blessed to know that I am alignment with such things as feeling this joyful, feeling like i'm special, that the Universe hasn't forgotten about me... that there are still miracles around every turn, you just gotta wait and be suprised by them.  Finally, I am humbled because- I REALLY love Jolynne Valerie.  Ever since stumbling upon her instagram, and being fully inspired by her,  i've become a huge fan.  I look up to her so much.  Every morning, her posts inspire me on instagram.  She is living her passion and writing paranormal books and from the beginning, I thought, this girl is way to cool!  I just want to say, that not only am I a fan of the paranormal, but I also love to write.  So I immediately felt like I could relate to what she's about.  Everyday she posts pictures of such amazing, delicious healthy meals.  She juggles this with a writing career, being a mom, and a newly wed.  I look at this and I think to myself:  THIS is the balance and energy I want to have in my life.  I recognize the power behind what it takes to achieve what she has,  and ultimately it makes me want to pursue my own dreams.  I would love to inspire someone like me, the way I have been inspired by her.  SO... winning this content meant much to me, because it was facilitated by someone who is pretty much a freaking hero in my eyes!  It's encouragement from the Universe, saying to me, yes!  You can have that, be that, accomplish all those things!  Yes, you are correctly utilizing your knowledge of the Law of Attraction!  And yes, we are noticing the work you have been doing, and here is your confirmation!  All these wonderful things happening to me, while its Full moon in Scorpio, and i am a Scorpio!  How can I not believe in astrology!  Hahaha my stars are so aligned.  :)

Words cannot fully describe how wonderful I feel.  Life, you have been truly good to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you!  :D

Amazing!

So i've been eating very healthy ever since we embarked on our cleanse a month ago.  I have been blessed with the Blendtec and I have great smoothies every morning.  Also, i've been receiving acupuncture treatment from the chinese physician twice a week, for the past for weeks.  The combination of all these blessings, healthy eating habits, exercise, positive thinking, determination, acupuncture, and chinese herbs have really taken me a long way. I feel wonderful and mentally, I am just zipping!  Focus!  Concentration!  Positivity!  Calm!  Peace!  It's all there!  Bliss & euphoria, well, they have made their presence too.  I am making the choice to continue moving forward with my plans and goals.  I actually have been working very hard, and I have officially enrolled myself in nutrition school.  I am now a student of IIN, and classes start on Monday.  I am beyond excited.  Not only to learn how to better take care of myself and transform my lifestyle, but also to better be educated to help others to make the same improvements in their life, as well as to get the business training i need.   I feel so good about my decisions right now.  :)