Yesterday was a very joyful and happy day filled with many accomplishments.

I passed my interview in Downt0wn! What a relief and a joy!

Also, i saw my bestest friend and we got to hang out
and make some organic strawberries & apple juice. Then we went to Home Depot
and i got the prettiest ornaments for my room,
and then we went to have dinner in L.A. at the cutest restaurant.
Outside it was so beautiful. They sky was so breathtaking yesterday-
I love nature everything I saw around me was so magnificent-
I'm just so thankful and touched to be a part of it all.
Anyways we had a REALLY good dinner- i had a salad w/ grilled vegetables and
the best cornbread ive ever had in my life.

Everything just happened so beautifully-
I really felt great love coming down to me from my brothers in the sky-
The ascension energies and natures beautiful earth energies were just too much
for me- IT was overwhelming like i was on some kind of drug- WOW!
My brain was hyperfunctioning with profound theories and ideas and they
needed to be expressed! Which i did and it felt good. ;)

Every part of me- my soul, my heart, and my mind
tells that if i ever smoked meth even just 1 more time
that it will shatter and i will have to start over
and the window of oppurtunity that is open to me now will be lost
forever.

I feel absolutely free, and i can handle things so much better.
The word for it is plasticity.
I've been spooning nutrition into my brain-
and ive been n0oticing many changes in my perception.
Reality is 100% awesome. I am ready to meditate as a serious art.

Today i just really feel more free and at ease with recovery and the way i'm coping. I am truly grateful to be alive and living consciously. I went to promo with my favorite girls last night.<3
I am beginning to believe there is a reason for me to move to my new job.

I even saw him last night. At like 3 in the morning. He's been focused cuz i see he went through with his weight loss plan and it looked like he slimmed down about 25 lbs. I am really impressed by thngs like that. Not just because it shows how dedicated and smart he can be, but it also tells me that he got better because of me- and he's been good, and headed somewhere positive. It makes me happy, and i think i still like him.

Anyway i have a new comforter with quilt. It's gorgeus<3

I got a swedish massage yesterday. It was wonderful. I was told that I need 3 per week for a month. I'm going to aim for 2 a week. Anyways i've been hanging out with Thy a lot. I sleptover her house last nite. 'Twas fun. O yea, i got my tickets for Vietnam. I'll be leaving shortly after Christmas- so now i'm planning cuz i have the energy to do it.

I'm really happy with work.

I've been high raw since BigBear. =]

Fall is coming, the weather is changing, and i'm beginning to plan my trip to Asia.<3

Im freakane ecstatic to be making money again.
Im also really proud of my diet as of the past couple weeks,
I am high raw again.
My health is a great concern for me.
Ive decided to stop drinking alcohol. I know my well being will greatly improve.
And im taking it upon myself to begin saving money for another vacation to Vietnam in January.
I really miss my aunties, and my beautiful home country..
I'm recovering.
I'm healthy.
Im inspired.
I'm honest with me.
I'm grateful.
I'm motivated.
I have goals.
So there.

This is the second time he's upset me this bad.
I realize just why it gets to me,

cuz for once i was ready for a relationship-
i was up for it-
i knew i have what it takes to step up to the plate
and BE somones girlfriend-
I actually wanted a boyfriend.

But not like this. I cant hate him or be mad at him.
God is just gently nudging me somewhere else.
I understand. I just need to quiet my thoughts,
find peace in my heart, be grateful for this learning experience
and the chance i had to learn to love

and go to sleep. nite.