& the angels whispered to me...

Trust, even if your future seems uncertain.
Trust, even if you have no idea how your situation could ever improve.
Trust, even if you feel alone and abandoned.
Trust, even if your heart is shattered.
Trust, because your strength comes from trusting that everything always gets better with time, that miracles do occur, and that prayers are answered in illogical ways.
Trust, because we need you to continue living and shining your light, and a lot of people love and depend upon you.
Trust, because God loves you for who you are right now and has a wonderful plan in works for you that you can't yet see or feel . . . but you soon will. Don't quit 5 minutes before the miracle!
Trust.

my love dream

I had a dream that i was in a supermarket with a friend sitting across from them facing them i noticed an old asian beggsr with bad teeth going around begging for change. I definitely noticed he looked extra sad when he came up to people, i thought about it and reached into my bag and when passed i gave him a handful of change. He gave me a grateful look and immediately handed me a large gold coin and i wondered why a poor man would do that.

Then I suddenly remembered that earlier in the dream or my dream memory recollected that a beggar would give me a gold coin like that and that beggar was a psychic, then I tracked him down in his small asian convenience store I walked in, looked around a bit then came up to him and explained everthing about my clairvoyance. Then he told me a bit of information. I dont remember what but it was something important to ME.

Then i was sitting with Thy & Angel on a table somewhere eating fried fish. We were talking and I said something that made Thy laugh.

Then I was watching Caleb and Josiaih play and Caleb hit me on purpose and i was so shocked and upset.

Then i was in a house chasing L3fty around i coould tell he was tweaking and i was so upset and he was being fucked up to me. I hate that feeling i followed him into a garage and lost him. This is my second time dreaming of the garage of my old house on community street. It was the middle of the night and dark inside and i was so scared. I couldnt find him after that.

Then I dreamt that I woke up on a bed with my love. He was this white guy and he was soooooo funny and in my dream he was sooooooo in love with me and treated me so good. I`ve had many dreams with unknown lovers but this was the sweetest. I was awake we were in a room on a bed to ourself i was looking at the bed oppositeus and watching the people laying in it. I then turned around and saw him, he turn over and got closer and held me. It felt so right i cant even explain it but i knew intuitively he was my bf. Then we were at school it was the end of class and the teacher(a male) dismissed class after i said something really funny. I was sitting with my boyfriend and he walked with me to a table as everyone was leaving i saw L too and he ignored me i was freakane sad but oh well ;[. Then on a table i saw a deck of golden cards and i remember saying `These are my oracle cards!`, it was my messages from the Archangel deck, except i couldnt find the box and was looking for it, but my boyfriend reassured me it was okay. We walked out of class and walked to another class. I was hanging onto his arm and leaning close and we were holding hands it was so, so, sweet. He found everythng i said cute, charming, and hilarius and i could tell he just really loved and appreciated my sense of humor, and i felt this sense of inner happiness that i have never felt before, he was holding me and i knew he would not leave me. His homegirl ran up in the dream and they had a conversation but all the while he held onto me it was the greatest feeling and it touched my heart deeply also because i saw how much his friends valued him by the way they were interacting. Everything he did felt wonderful. He was so perfect. I want him and i cant wait to find him.

What a happy New Year =)

Last year`s experiences were truly a blessing . I am so happy for this clean slate I have today . God has given me a brand new year . I truly intend to share it with you journal ! I`m so thankful to have you as an outlet for expressing my feelings . =)

Today I woke up in my cozy home on my comfortable bed on my most wonderful mattress between warm sheets and super soft pillows *smiling*... I want to always appreciate this at the very least . I love where I`m at in life . Life cradles me with God`s love . I am well rested this morning . I`m so happy with everything I have . I went outside to do my laundry and wash my sheets . The weather was cold but I loved the way the morning air felt on my skin . The sun felt so good on me . I am so hapy this morning . I made a kale-banana-raspberry smoothie and i drank it thankfully, knowing that it would boost my health and assist me in manifesting joyful life experiences . I feel wonderful ! And now, I will make a delicious goat cheese pizza and enjoy watching inspirational videos on my Macbook. :]

Love life. Love you.