Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Shinedown lyrics

It's 4:03, and I can't sleep
Without you next to me, I toss and turn like the sea...

Friday, March 25, 2011

i had a sad dream

That i just woke up from. In my dream I was in a library with this boy, (unknown), my lover. He was a bald headed southsider. The librarian was playing a film clip for us of a wanted vampire and his companion. In the film the two were fighting kung fu style on a school bench in the middle of the nucleus. I remembered feeling sharp pangs of recognition and a poignant nostalgia seeing the man on the screen. He had dark blonde hair in a tight ponytail- and baggy black clothing. I think he was mine in a past lifetime. A friend in another time and place. I missed him. I watched astonished but suddenly i had the urge to seek out books to guide me in my career choice. The song Voyage Voyage began playing on the newsreel. I couldn't believe it. The librarian brought me to another section of the library- it was then that the library was usddenly filled up with rushing people. I grabbed my friend and she pulled me down the passageways of shouting and hurried people. We were so scared- the ship was sinking. I realized I was on the Titanic. About halfway out- I reached my bald boyfriend. I didnt want to pass him by- and he urged me to go the direction he was headed for. But all my power and my will realized he wasnt going anywhere- at that moment time froze and we stood still. My homegirl broke us apart and we ran off the ship, sonehow in the net scene we passed an asian outdoor market and i hurriedly considered taking some food- but there was no time, We ran far ahead in the opposite direction of the ship. I looked behind me and saw the great ship snap in two, and in my mind i pictured a flood beyond us rushing to swallow us whole. Then we made it to Thy's backyard and we climbed on the white swing set. Me and my girl held onto the ropes of the swing and tied ourselves to each other. We watched as the ship sunk on the horizon- and i cried knowing my boyfriend was still on it. It was a beautiful sunny bright white morning- and me and my girl stood strong watching the still scene beyond. We made it.

I noticed we were both wearing long flowing white dresses. I looked down- nd in that moment- i realized my full round belly.

Monday, March 21, 2011

We were posted on our own lil world on Alvarad0 n Kent all day yesterday. We got so much closer and then in the morning we started agruing and i dont think it had anything to do with me. I love him but i just wanna disengage from the madness he is involved in......................Bryan you are no good for me. Player

Friday, March 18, 2011

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

He was in jail for 2 and a half weeks...
Upon release i took him to court and we hang out at his sisters house
and on Occidental...in his hood.......we told B0bby its over....

I cant believe he's still in love with me even though ive told him from the get go i just need his protection...I wish i was close with B0bby again...

Sunday, March 6, 2011

The streets haven't completely broken her. She's not a lost cause yet. It's not too late for her. 'Cause she's smart. She comes from a good family. She has people that care about her. That's why I like her.

I don't think that she belongs here. Most of the junkies tell me the same thing. They all say she doesn't belong here. She's too smart. She's too pretty. She has too much going for her to let her life just waste away here in Los Angeles on the street.