Doing too much of everything where im at is getting me nowhere,but worse. 
(-) + (-) = (-)             
I thought positive plus positive equals a positive. 
(+) + (+)=(+)
If nothing gets better when im doing more of the same shit 
than what im on is negative and 
anything i did was actually wrong.  


The problem is dope.

Vi l l i n wrote a song about meeeeee.  
---I can't believeeeee he made me a part of his music!.  :-),


So the way he wrote it,
he tells a story
basically about what he feels about this girl
annnnnnd
full of appreciation and praise about me, i mean, this girl. :-) 
cuz he realizes how down she is for wut he believes in.


People are so much deeper than you can imagine.  
He constantly surprises me with how insightful and positive he is.

thoughts

I've been doing too much again. .
Many of my homies have shown me that they have love for me and I hold their opinions in high regards.
i feel like when im on the streets, my friends are my family.  I want them to know that.

But its hard for me to maintain my calm when inside my body doped up with no sleep and little food-

There's really no boundaries when im high on meth.  I feel like ive let some homies do just about everything to hurt me and im still around, like any of it is ever okay.

PLAYER ♥

Today he introduced me to his PO as his girlfriend.  But it felt more like a coverup to make him look good. I hope so but honestly idc. 

My name is T4mmy and I am addicted to crystal meth. I need help, cuhs i don't think i can ever stop on my own. I wish i could escape this madness, but i'm addicted to everything about this lifestyle.

enslavement

darkness, death’s caressing kiss, Bright light intruding eternal abyss. Dark powers severing ancient tome, Entities forsaking me forcing me from the womb. Fear, pain, I don’t know what is worse, Life, is this a blessing or is this a curse? Lurking in the darkest corners of dark straining to see, Whisperers from light beckoning me. Extinguishing memories and forgotten past, New experience filling me fast. Blazing brilliance of the sun, I feel alone. Existence and purpose unknown. My questions of being are answered, I wonder why? Only when stars shine bright in the sky. Here on Earth used as some dark entity’s tool, Mysteries, prophecies, damned wondering soul. Past life’s Karma essence already been sold, No power of choice path already foretold. Many lives to live earning spirits soul to keep, Life is so short yet I yearn death’s eternal sleep. Death, Bars of Darkness, Sinister Cave, Life is work, ancient entities scave. I’m on my knees praying for God’s sake, Next time born grant me freedom when I wake.

Phil Collins

writes such inspiring music.  he's so positive.  the Tarzan soundtrack is amazing,

"Two Worlds"-
Put your faith in what you most believe in
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see
...Somewhere something is calling for you




"Son of Man"-
In learning you will teach
And in teaching you will learn
You'll find your place beside the
ones you love
Oh, and all the things you dreamed of
The visions that you saw
Well, the time is drawing near now
It's yours to claim in all 
Son of Man, look to the sky
Lift your spirit, set it free
Some day you'll walk tall with pride...




"Strangers Like Me"-
Whatever you do, I'll do it too
Show me everything and tell me how
It all means something
And yet nothing to me 

I can see there's so much to learn
It's all so close and yet so far
I see myself as people see me
Oh, I just know there's something bigger out there

I wanna know, can you show me
I wanna know about these
strangers like me
Tell me more, please show me
Something's familiar about these strangers like me